Everyone has a story...
It's been quite a journey to get to where I am. I have never been able to settle, for a job I didn't want or a life that felt like less than it was supposed to be, or the lack of the material things I wanted, even if I never wanted to be an "over-consumer".
And that's been both a blessing and a curse.
I started out in the corporate world... hated it, so I moved on to working in clubs and tending bar, but you burn out real fast in that world. I knew I wanted to help people and that spirituality would play a part in that, so in 2007 I become a certified yoga teacher.
In 2008 I opened a yoga studio, (even though I had ZERO knowledge about running a business, the Universe was just going to reward my courage, right?).
By 2010 I was completely burned out as I was still tending bar 3 nights a week, plus teaching 4-5 yoga classes every week, plus monthly workshops on the weekends (it was what I had to do to "pay my dues" and support myself in doing what I loved, or so I thought).
Let me tell you something: helping people while you're struggling yourself, gets old - fast.
When I lost my bartending job in late 2010, it was the last straw for me. This loss coupled with a lifetime of trauma that was just waiting to bust through the surface brought me to a dark night of the soul, and what I mean by that is a complete and utter breakdown that would last YEARS.
Being the strong, independent woman that I was, I faced this challenge with gusto. I knew that teaching yoga wasn't quite cutting it, I knew I wanted to help people in a more direct way. Plus, at this point I was so low that I could barely leave the house (think... failed business + falling apart life + childhood sexual trauma = diagnosed CPTSD), so becoming an online coach seemed the perfect solution to all my problems... right?
Since I hadn't ever made nearly enough money teaching yoga, I decided to start studying marketing and how to become a coach. I devoured every webinar, course and strategy-plan I could get my hands on. I learned a ton. And I still got nowhere but broke, homeless and even more brokenhearted and traumatized... if that was even possible.
Finally, when everything I touched seemed to fail, fall apart or evaporate before my eyes... I said "eff" a business, I don't care if I ever make money again because my heart is so broken I can barely breathe.
It was at this point I begged and borrowed (literally because by this point I was homeless and couch surfing) so that I could hire the top people in the world of coaching to help me heal my traumas, old and new.
Was it easy, HELL NO.
But it was worth it because once I'd healed enough of my past to start taking steps forward, once I began combining the emotional work I had learned with the business practices I had learned... everything I thought I had known about life... changed. And everything I had been working towards started to fall into place.
It is this process that birthed Coaches and Healers Rising because what my struggles had taught me, above all else, is that these things we call "coaching and healing businesses" are not just businesses... they are us, with our hearts on our sleeves and our insides turned out. And while they are one of THE most enjoyable and incredible things we can ever do... they also take an enormous amount of courage, grace and a willingness to be vulnerable.
I came out of my struggles knowing what I wanted to help people with, particularly women. And I knew exactly what they needed to create real success... they needed the business planning, that's for sure, but they also needed hand-holding, love and a safe place to learn how to love and accept themselves and their power enough to have the courage to share themselves, fully and honestly, with the world.
Coaches and Healers Rising is my baby. It's where I take ALL of the struggles I have been through and combine them with all of the business skills I have learned... and like alchemy, turning the darkness into gold, I use them to help others shine their light into the world and make a real difference, while also making enough money for themselves.
My journey has been hard, I won't lie. There were times I genuinely didn't think I was going to make it through. But now, here I sit, with my laptop on my lap and the business of my dreams in hand... and I can think of no other place I'd rather be.
Don't let another day go by wishing for success, confused about how to move forward and questioning whether you're even meant to be doing this ~ it's time to live the life you've been dreaming about!